“I would insist that poetry is a normal human activity and its proper concern all the things that happen to people.” — Michael Longley

“I write out of a jumble of emotions and vague notions and scraps of knowledge. At some stage a form or, rather, a shape mysteriously emerges.”
— Michael Longley

Poet Michael Longley was born on this day in Belfast in 1935. He died in January of this year.

He went to Trinity where he studied classics. Much of his poetry shows a classical influence, with references to the ancient Greek and Roman mythology. Much of his inspiration (as is true for many Irish writers) comes from the wild west of Ireland. But history looms large in that landscape, and Longley’s perspective is always panoramic, gigantic. His poems can easily be read as metaphors of current-day Irish issues; this was especially true in the 70s when Northern Ireland was exploding in violence.

Longley was a teacher for many years, and was married to critic Edna Longley. He won numerous prizes, published many volumes of poetry (including a “Collected Poems”), and also published a memoir. From 2007 to 2010 he was “Professor of Poetry for Ireland”, a relatively new post, sort of like a Poet Laureate but with more of an academic slant. The post was held before him by John Montague (my post about him here), the wonderful Nuala Ní Dhomhnaill (post on her here) and Paul Durcan (post on him here).

My friend – Therese Cox (we met at a Bloomsday celebration 20 years ago and have gone every year ever since) left a fantastic comment on an old post I wrote about Longley, and I will re-post it here:

There is a poem by Michael Longley called “The Dome” that’s inscribed in the glass ceiling of a new building in Belfast in Victoria Square. It’s this massive glass dome, segmented almost like a clear soccer ball, and you climb a tall winding staircase in this shopping centre to get to the top and see the poem. What I love about it is how subtle it is — if you weren’t looking for the poem, you might miss it. My cousin and I climbed up there last April “to see the Michael Longley poem” — one of many fun geeky pilgrimages I’ve enjoyed over the years.

Of course the poem itself is great, a nod to Belfast’s industrial past. I find it all the more fragile and beautiful to contemplate when you consider that 10, 15 years ago, a glass-encased building called Victoria Square would NEVER have gotten built in Belfast. (It was unveiled in 2007, and Longley was there to read “The Dome.”) And then there is this poem up there, as if to say, “Go on. You bomb me, you bomb this poem.” And no one touches it. Kind of majestic, really.

When I was in Belfast in the mid-2000s, I went out for drinks with my friend Carrie, and she pointed out the glass windows of the bar, a whole wall of glass. She told me they weren’t bullet-proof. The fact that she even had to mention it shows what a huge deal it was.

Here’s Longley’s poem in the dome:

The Dome

Raise high the roof-beam, engineers, make room

For tradesmen who come crowding in from yesterday –

Greengrocers, haberdashers, tobacconists,

old Dears in home bakeries and sweetie shops – ice-cream

Pokes, sherbet suckers, liquorice sticks, Paris buns – Butchers, costermongers – yes, beneath the dome

Make room for all to stargaze through the ceiling. Near the fountain a horse through that’s no longer there

Reflects the dome, and the dome reflects in turn

The shoppers’ upturned faces for years to come

Taking in this fantastical construction’s

Bridges, walkways, viewing-platforms like lily-pads

Afloat in the atmosphere. Raise high the roof-beam.

The dome has been here always. Or so it seems. Pegasus, winged horse of our imagination,

Has drunk from the fountain in Victoria Square.

 

The history of Belfast, its decades of explosions, underlines the significance of a gigantic glass domes. A new hope and belief in political stability. This glass will not shatter.

Longley’s poem below is dedicated to Irish poet Eavan Boland (I love her). While much of this poem basically describes a walk he took along the beach, watch what he does with the language. Every other phrase has some startling and perceptive image. I read the last four lines over and over, thinking about what they mean. The “privilege of vertigo”. What a fascinating phrase. Why the “privilege”? It is a perfect term rhythmically, but it’s also unexpected. You aren’t ready for it. The line itself has vertigo in it, the whole poem is vertigo. He writes that his eyes “slowly accept panorama”. Again: perfect. Unfortunately, I cannot replicate here the staggered nature of his lines, and what they look like on the page. It makes a difference, what a poem looks like, the indentations and step-ladder line-length. If you Google the poem, you’ll be able to see it elsewhere, where it at least looks right.

In the meantime, let us “slowly accept panorama”. Longley knows it’s difficult. But we are given the “privilege of vertigo”.

The Hebrides
for Eavan Boland

I.

The winds’ enclosure, Atlantic’s premises,
Last balconies
Above the waves, The Hebrides –
Too long did I postpone
Presbyterian granite and the lack of trees,
This orphaned stone,
Day in, day out colliding with the sea.
Weather forecast,
Compass nor ordinance survey
Arranges my welcome
For, on my own, I have lost my way at last,
So far from home.
In whom the city is continuing,
I stop to look,
To find my feet among the ling
And bracken – over me
The bright continuum of gulls, a rook
Occasionally.

II.

My eyes, slowly accepting panorama,
Try to include
In my original idea
The total effect
Of air and ocean – waterlogged all wood –
All harbours wrecked –
My dead-lights latched by whelk and barnacle
Till I abide
By the sea wall of the time I kill –
My each nostalgic scheme
Jettisoned, as crises are, the further side
Of sleep and dream.
Between wind and wave this holiday
The cormorant,
The oyster-catcher and osprey
Proceed and keep in line,
While I, hands in my pockets, hesitant,
Am in two minds.

III.

Old neighbours, though shipwreck’s my decision,
People my brain –
Like breakwaters against the sun,
Command in silhouette
My island circumstance – my cells retain,
Perpetuate
Their crumpled deportment through bad weather,
And I feel them
Put on their raincoats for ever
And walk out in the sea.
I am, though each one waves a phantom limb,
The amputee,
For these are my sailors, these my drowned –
In their heart of hearts,
In their city, I ran aground.
Along my arteries
Sluice those homewaters petroleum hurts.
Dry dock, gantries,
Dykes of apparatus, educate my bones
To track the buoys
Up sea lanes love emblazons
To streets where shall conclude
My journey back from flux to poise, from poise
To attitude.
Here, at the edge of my experience,
Another tide
Along the broken shore extends
A lifetime’s wrack and ruin –
No flotsam I may beachcomb now can hide
That water-line.

IV.

Beyond the lobster pots, where plankton spreads,
Porpoises turn.
Seals slip over the cockle beds.
Undertow dishevels
Seaweed in the shallows – and I discern
My sea levels.
To right and left of me there intervene
The tumbled burns –
And these, on turf and boulder weaned,
Confuse my calendar –
Their tilt is suicidal, their great return
Curricular.
No matter what repose holds shore and sky
In harmony,
From this place in the long run I,
Though here I might have been
Content with rivers where they meet the sea,
Remove upstream,
Where the salmon, risking fastest waters –
Waterfall and rock
And the effervescent otters –
On bridal pools insist
As with fin and generation they unlock
The mountain’s fist.

V.

Now, buttoned up, with water in my shoes,
Clouds around me,
I can, through mist that misconstrues,
Read like a palimpsest
My past – those landmarks and that scenery
I dare resist.
Into my mind’s unsympathetic through
They fade away –
And, to alter my perspective,
I feel in the sharp cold
Of my vantage point too high above the bay,
The sea grow old.
Granting the trawlers far below their stance,
Their anchorage,
I fight all the way for balance –
In the mountain’s shadow
Losing foothold, covet the privilege
Of vertigo.

 
 
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Substack: My first press badge

Trying to get back on the horse, words-wise. I wrote a piece on my Substack about my first press badge, which is really about what life was like in the late 1990s. Famous-person cameo.

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Dynamic Duo #49

14-year-old Eve Babitz – in 1957 – reading the autobiography of Elinor Glyn, she who coined the term “It” in the 1920s, i.e. “he/she has IT”, meaning sex appeal, charisma. The book was a sensation and a Clara Bow vehicle – of the same name – was soon to follow. “It” swept the nation, with all its images of freedom and sexual liberation for women (and, by association, men). The picture was taken by Eve’s mother Mae. Glyn’s autobiography was called Romantic Adventure, and when Babitz was 14 she had already started a memoir – or at least had the idea for one – called I Wouldn’t Raise My Kid in Hollywood (ha!). Also, around the same time, a concerned guidance counselor asked the teenage Babitz, who spent her summers hanging out at the “rough beach” with basically criminal boys on motorcycles and their tough-chick girlfriends, “What are your plans? What are you going to do when you graduate?” Babitz said, “Be an adventuress.”

And she was. Until the adventures ran out, but not before she wrote it all down (Eve’s Hollywood, Slow Days Fast Company, Sex & Rage, L.A. Woman, Two by Two, and literally hundreds of essays for magazines ranging from Rolling Stone to Esquire to ‘zines that ran for only two issues).

Look at Eve’s face. She’s young but she already KNOWS.

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“If I could say it in words there would be no reason to paint.” — Edward Hopper

It’s his birthday today.

I wrote about Edward Hopper quite a bit in my Present Tense column at Film Comment, detailing the Hopper-y vibe of Tom Noonan’s great film about urban loneliness, What Happened Was… In fact, I have a sneaking suspicion that Karen Sillas’ deep-rose-colored dress might be inspired by this painting. Her apartment is all windows, too, in the movie.

I love the loneliness in Edward Hopper’s work. The insomnia. The urban midnights. The voyeurism. The emptiness. If you’re heartbroken, Hopper is your kindred spirit. I find his paintings very sad, sadness you can wallow in. Many (most?) people do what they can to avoid loneliness. I have never been able to pull it off. All the lonely people, where do they all come from?

Living in a major metropolitan area, you are constantly up against other people’s lives. People have private moments in public. You can peek into people’s windows as you walk by. You give each other privacy as best you can. People can weep on the subway, and nobody freaks out. Everyone clams up, goes into their own private head-space, and the weeping person may as well be in her own room for all the attention she gets. Believe me: having been that weeping person, there’s a comfort in anonymity. There is nothing quite like the freedom to be left alone.

At the same time, there is the sense of being privy to other people’s secrets. There are just so many damn windows. How do other people live? How are they managing?

Sometimes, if you’re alone, and feeling your alone-ness acutely … seeing glimpses of other people living their lives, through windows, connects you to something human. Reminds you you are a human being, you are real. It doesn’t eradicate loneliness. The kind of loneliness I’m talking about can’t be eradicated. I wonder if there are some people who have never felt loneliness like that. Loneliness that literally wakes you up at nights. Like Laing writes in her great book The Lonely City, where Edward Hopper is featured prominently, loneliness like that is like being hungry.

I found a really wonderful article about Edward Hopper’s paintings of movie theatres.

Hopper evokes a world gone by, and yet not all that unlike our own. People are people, no matter the era.

I have been all of these women.

Even when Hopper moves out into the country, the loneliness follows him. Or maybe this is just me projecting. That’s the power of his work. There’s a blankness there somewhere, a nothing-ness, giving great permission to the viewer to place herself into the painting, to see her own life there. Or not. I grew up in a beach town. My first kiss was on a foggy beach. The ocean is the background to most of my childhood memories. So I look at these two, and yes, I wonder what they might be talking about, but I also wonder if they aren’t talking at all, if they are just listening to the sound of the lonely surf breaking on the beach below?

“Maybe I am slightly inhuman … All I ever wanted to do was to paint sunlight on the side of a house.” — Edward Hopper

Terrence Malick knew his Hopper, that’s for sure.

So does Tommy Lee Jones.

Only Edward Hopper could turn a gas station into an image piercingly sweet and sad. Pungent and poetic. I don’t feel like analyzing why. These are feelings that hurt, not particularly pleasant, but they’re familiar. I’ve had them since I was very very young, before I understood anything about love and loss. It’s a human-inheritance kind of thing.

As I observed in the article linked at the top: one thing to note about his most famous painting: The diner has no door. No way in, no way out.

Loneliness is not pleasant. People go to mad extremes to avoid being lonely; it’s that excruciating an experience. Loneliness has ruined long stretches of my life. I look back and wish to spare myself. But at least I had some company. Edward Hopper had already been there.

Last year, Allison and I went to the stunning Edward Hopper exhibit at the Whitney. I had been hearing about it for months and watching enviously as friends attended (via their Instagram feeds). Allison and I finally went. And we lost ourselves to the world. What an AMAZING exhibit. Edward Hopper’s New York. It was not just the usual suspects, although I got to see those too. It dug into his early advertising work, lots of that on display – so different! – his sketches – the sketches of “Nighthawks” – and also his relationship with movies/theatres. We wandered around, sometimes together, sometimes alone. There were so many people there, which – after the last couple of years we had – did my heart good. People clustering before famous paintings. Edward Hopper’s paintings are stories. You can “read into” them. I ended up talking with two other women about one of the paintings. We talked about what we saw. We read into the behavior. It was so awesome.

Allison and I both saw some Hopper-in-real-life visuals DURING our time there. We weren’t together when we saw these things, but we both noticed and both took pictures, of the exact same thing. We are kindred spirits. See if you can spot them.

I was so excited I got to see that one. ^^

I got full-body goosebumps when I saw that one in person. ^^

 
 
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Happy Birthday, Edward Herrmann

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With a career as long and diverse as Edward Herrmann’s there is much to discuss. When he died, I wrote a piece for Ebert, focusing on just one moment in Warren Beatty’s Reds, a moment that (in its small way) helps make the whole thing possible.

That’s the job of a character actor.

Just one line: Edward Herrmann, 1943-2014

 
 
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“The rhythm is jazz.” — Hart Crane

“What I want to get is … an ‘interior’ form, a form that is so thorough and intense as to dye the words themselves with a pecularity of meaning, slightly different maybe from the ordinary definition of them separate from the poem.” — Hart Crane

It’s his birthday today.

There are good poets. There are major poets. And then there are the ones who disturb the waters, who disrupt, who create new space in their chaotic wake. Walt Whitman. T.S. Eliot. Yeats. And Hart Crane. His life was so short and yet his influence seems to just grow in intensity as the years pass. He was the inspiring force for a whole new generation of writers, each of whom struggled to get out from under his shadow (as Crane struggled to get out of Eliot’s shadow). Tennessee Williams was honest about his feeling of debt to Crane. He used Crane quotations as epigraphs in many of his plays, and dedicated many of his plays to Crane. He kept a picture of Hart Crane over his writing desk for decades. They did not know one another.

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“When I have an idea, I turn down the flame, as if it were a little alcohol stove, as low as it will go. Then it explodes, and that is my idea.” — Ernest Hemingway

Paris Review interview, 2007:
Interviewer: Is it possible [Hemingway] showed a generation how to get emotion into a sentence without mentioning emotion?
Norman Mailer: Yes, and he did it more than anyone ever had before or after. But he’s a trap. If you’re not careful you end up writing like him. It’s very dangerous to write like Hemingway, but on the other hand it’s almost a rite of passage. I almost wouldn’t trust a young novelist – I won’t speak for the women here, but for a male novelist – who doesn’t imitate Hemingway in his youth.

It’s his birthday today.

A writer challenged Hemingway: Write a story in 6 words. Hemingway was a gambler, a risk-taker, and would never walk away from a challenge. The problem obsessed him. 6-word story … it obsessed him for a couple of days. What he came up with is quite famous (and way better than the milque-toast imitations):

For Sale: Baby Shoes. Never Used.

Hemingway said later he thought it was the best thing he ever wrote.

And … maybe he’s not wrong.

Of course I’ve read all his stuff. I like Moveable Feast best of all, although I recognize, of course, the revolution that was his pared-down fictional prose. In acting classes – at least in the ones I took back in the day – it was common for actors to work on Hills Like White Elephants, which is a story – not a play – but it’s mostly dialogue and – crucially – almost no subtext (maybe none at all?) He tells the story and allows you to INFER by the dialogue what is going on, perfect for actors to work on. I think that short story is also at the top of the list of his accomplishments as a writer. I also like the sex “scene” in For Whom the Bell Tolls, something about the earth moving beneath the sleeping bag and/or tent? Sorry, it’s just a sentence but it’s hot as hell. It’s a perfect example of what he did best, when he was really cooking: less is more. It can’t touch the hottest sex scene of all, in James Cain’s The Postman Always Rings Twice:

“I had to have her if I hung for it.
I had her.”

But still, I think you can learn a lot from Hemingway. You have to be careful though.


Dean Stockwell and Ernest Hemingway

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July 20, 1969: Tranquility

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President Kennedy to the joint session of Congress on May 25 1961:

“I believe that this nation should commit itself to achieving the goal, before this decade is out, of landing a man on the Moon and returning him safely to the Earth.”

Here’s an incredible photo of their approach to the landing spot, taken from the lunar module:

Buzz Aldrin to NASA, after landing on the moon:

“This is the LM pilot. I’d like to take this opportunity to ask every person listening in, whoever and wherever they may be, to pause for a moment and contemplate the events of the past few hours and to give thanks in his or her own way.”

Neil Armstrong to Mission Control:

“Houston, Tranquility Base here. The Eagle has landed.”

The Walter Cronkite telecast as it all happened gives me goosebumps. Of course I didn’t see it at the time, but it puts you right back there.

From The New York Times article on July 21, 1969:

His first step on the moon came at 10:56:20 P.M., as a television camera outside the craft transmitted his every move to an awed and excited audience of hundreds of millions of people on earth.

Neil Armstrong reporting back as he stepped out onto the moon:

“The surface is fine and powdery. I can kick it up loosely with my toe. It does adhere in fine layers, like powdered charcoal, to the sole and sides of my boots.”

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Buzz Aldrin

And Buzz Aldrin describes what he sees, in my favorite phrase of that momentous day:

“Magnificent desolation.”

 
 
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“The reality is you don’t arrive, you don’t have a crone ceremony and suddenly get wisdom.” — Olympia Dukakis

“I recognize that the real pulse of life is transformation, yet I work in a world dominated by men and the things men value, where transformation is not the coinage. It’s not even the language! Winning is everything in Hollywood. The ‘deal’ is everything. I understand the competitive thing because I had a real battle with it as a young woman. Because of my ethnicity, I felt I had to prove I was better – not as good as, but better – than others. Thankfully, it became clear to me that when I compete, I lose my connection to the passion I have for my work. Every once in a while, I come across a man who has the desire to collaborate and be conciliatory. But if I want to continue acting and have the potential for financial prosperity – something that came to me very late in life – I have to live with these competitive values.” — Olympia Dukakis

The quote above comes from an extraordinary interview with Dukakis I came across – which is actually a chapter in the book In Sweet Company: Conversations with Extraordinary Women About Living a Spiritual Life, by Margaret Wolff. I highly recommend reading the whole thing.


Husband and wife Louis Zorich and Olympia Dukakis in The Seagull, Williamstown Theater Festival

The first thing I thought of when I heard the sad news of Olympia Dukakis’ passing was the compulsive sighs emanating from her Oscar-winning performance in Moonstruck. She would let out these little exhalations of air from time to time, sometimes in conversation, sometimes not, standing at the stove cooking, a mournful short quick sigh. It was a “tic” of the character – we all have “tics” like this – but Dukakis didn’t do it as a “tic”. The character needed to let tension and anxiety. So much was in the sigh. A lifetime was in the sigh.

Only a great actress could pull it off.



The second thing I thought of was an interview she did for a wonderful book called The Actor’s Chekhov (about the company of actors who came to Williamstown Theatre Festival every summer while Nikos Psacharopoulos was artistic director, people like Christopher Walken, Laila Robins, Blythe Danner. It’s a fantastic book, particularly for student actors because these people know how to WORK. It’s one of the best “acting process” books in my entire collection, because none of it is theoretical. It’s ALL practical.

As a young actress, the following passage blew my mind because it showed just how detailed you had to be when going through the script, how you could take NOTHING for granted. You had to be so curious! Don’t be obedient and passive: you must be active as an actor, you must ask questions about every single thing your character says.

This is one of the BEST examples I have ever seen of how to ask questions in the early stages of working with a script.

Listen to how Dukakis tries to figure out why her character says one line in particular. It’s a seemingly banal line, a “nothing” line, filler, just chit-chat. (But, as my very first acting mentor Kimber Wheelock used to drill into our heads: In acting, nothing can be “just”. You aren’t “just” sad. You aren’t “just” walking out of the room. You are sad. You are walking out of a room for a reason. Any time you hear yourself saying the word “just” – and this doesn’t just go for actors – take a second to stop and ask yourself why. You’re lying to yourself somewhere Find the lie, and remove the “just”.) So here, watch how she goes about solving the problem of the moment. You have to know why you’re saying something because once you know the WHY you then know the HOW. Otherwise you’re just being GENERAL. Human beings do this naturally, without thinking. We are SPECIFIC as humans, we aren’t GENERAL. You don’t have to think, “Wait, why am I saying this again?” as a regular human being. But actors do. Actors have to make choices. What seems like a throw-off line is a huge PUZZLE to Dukakis, and it was a problem she needed to solve. Not just for herself but ALSO for the audience. Chekhov wrote a “moment” here – it’s not random, NOTHING is random – so what IS the moment (a) and (b) how do I PLAY that moment?

Olympia Dukakis, along with her acting career, was an acting teacher all her life. You can see here why she was such a great one. I cannot even explain how much the following anecdote influenced me in my own work. Transformative:

Something very interesting happened the first time I did Paulina in The Sea Gull. She comes to them in the third act, and says, “Here are the plums for the journey.” And when I was researching it I thought, why is she giving him plums for the journey? It always seemed like she was a batty person! And then I began reading what it was like to go on a journey then. There was a long time on the train, it was very difficult, the food was very bad, people would get diarrhea, constipation. And when I read that I knew what it was! Bowel movements! So, I mean, I could play that! That’s something that’s a private thing, you don’t announce it to everyone. I mean, if I came up to you and you were going on a trip and I said, “Here’s some Ex-Lax,” I wouldn’t make a big announcement! I would try to be confidential about it. So that helped me with how the moment should be acted. But even then, I thought the audience doesn’t know this, they don’t know that that’s what plums are about. The line should be prunes! An audience will know prunes.

Now the word in the text is plums, there’s no getting around it, the specific literal translation was “plums”. At least that’s what I was told again and again by Kevin McCarthy. Because Kevin had been in that production with Mira Rostova, he considered himself the big Chekhov expert among us. He didn’t think it should be changed. As usual I didn’t go up to Nikos and say, “Listen, I think we should change this, blah blah blah.” I just did it one day in rehearsal. Nikos fell over with laughter! Kevin was apoplectic. But I felt – it’s not the specific word, that’s true, but this is the spirit of it, this is what’s intended, this is what Chekhov wants the audience to know the woman is doing.

Nikos waited till Kevin had given me my scolding and left the room and then he came over and said, “Keep it in.”

Olympia Dukakis came and spoke at my grad school. One of the things she said really struck me. She was 70 years old or something like that, and someone asked her something about becoming famous later in life, and the gist of the question was that since there weren’t as many elderly actresses, it might be easier to become famous later because there was less competition.

Dukakis – nobody’s fool – and actually rather scary in an exciting way – said, with no bitterness, but her tone was like “let me just shred up that illusions for you right now, kiddo”: “Listen, every script that comes to me has been offered to Gena Rowlands first. I get the script and Gena’s fingerprints are all over it. Any role I get it’s only because she’s turned it down.”

The way she said “Gena’s fingerprints” had such a tough hard edge – it was very funny the way she said it. “Lemme guess. Gena turned this one down, right?” In her tone was massive respect for “Gena”. Of COURSE they’re gonna offer it to Gena first. Olympia wasn’t complaining, wasn’t saying “I should be first in line.” She was acknowledging reality: As long as Gena Rowlands is topside, I will always be second choice.

It was a good lesson. As an actor, you can’t trip about things like that. About being a director’s second choice, or third choice, or whatever. Competition never ends, not even when you’re old. You’re never “in the clear”. Be good at what you do. Be grateful Gena turned it down.

No, thank YOU.

 
 
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R.I.P. Jennifer Finch

Jennifer Finch’s death has really hit me. She has inspired so many but my experience is completely subjective. The sound of L7 was part of the soundtrack of my 20s and 30s. And L7 is never far from me. They’re always on rotation to this day. I just can’t believe it. I’m sorry, I haven’t been able to write much these days. Something seems to have happened to me. I can’t find the words. Here’s her obit in Rolling Stone. I wanted to take a moment to acknowledge her passing. She was huge for me. Thank you, Jennifer. You are free now. No more pain.

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